My Own WorLD~ Q(",Q)

Hey. Not so long ago, eh? Felt like blogging again. Well. Let’s begin with me having a bad week. Not fun at all. I’ve been working in this company for 8 months now. I went in as a contract worker, which last for 9 months. But I am lucky that I’m promoted to a permanent in just 2 months!! I’m not sure about others (Maybe there is someone out there that is just as lucky as me), but I am proud of myself, and what I have achieved. Well. I am only human. I DO slack (sometimes =p) but I consider myself as a hardworking person. And when I’m into working, I will really getting into it. I’m not trying to blow my own trumpet, but I do lots of great things in the company, and I consider myself as a great asset. I got praised from my manager so many times, but that does not stop me from working harder and harder, to contribute to the company. I worked harder and harder every time, until I felt so much of burden over my shoulders. I have tons of workloads compared to my colleague (She came in the same time with me. But she came in as a permanent). I got tons of assignments, until sometimes I felt like the work is just to heavy for me, that I should not be so selfish, that I should just let go some and give it to others to handle since I am kind of overloaded. BUT, no. I did not gave up. I work so much harder that my girlfriend has to endure with all this (Thank god she understands). I finish up all the tasks given to me.What really hurts me, is that after so many of hard work, nothing seems to pay off. I got words of encouragement. I got praises for the work I’ve done. But the only thing I was hoping for, is not given to me. My BONUS! Yes. I did not demand any sorts of pay rise, and I did not even ask for year end bonus. The only thing I was hoping for is that I will actually received a red packet from my highers ups, for the Chinese New Year celebration. I thought that was given…..But what I thought is not the thing that happens. My manager skype-ed last week. She said I was not entitled to any sorts of bonus this time, as I am still under probation. I was so upset and so disappointed that time. I mean…I worked hard you know. I worked so hard. Came back to work on holidays. I spent my time and energy just to finish my work for the company. I spent all my precious time with my girlfriend, just to finish up things for all of them. But what I get in the end, is just a line. “It’s a tradition, a usual practice!!!!!”

Another sad thing that happened is that my car got bang-ed. I am not there when this happened, but I assumed that my car over-turned because of the scratches, and my car actually “moved”! I have to take one day off, just to send the car to the workshop, and my car actually need to be “hospitalized” for 3 days! And now I will have to walk around 10 minutes to the train station, every day!! All thanks to you, punk!!

Anyway, my first-love messaged me just now. Was shocked actually. Don’t get me wrong. She is a good “sister”, and just asking about her “sister-in-law”. Ha ha ha ha ha..=D I do not know what is up with her but I felt like something wrong with her. But anyway if she is not going to tell, never mind lo. Just worried, but I think she is old enough to think what is right and what is wrong.

Talking about my first-love remind me about how stupid I was, the things I did, and the scenes I went through. OMG! It’s so real. I remember how she ignored me, and remember how she turned me down. I remember how her face looked like every time she turned me down, and I actually remember the times she rejected me. Don’t get me wrong again. What I am trying to say is I am thankful for everything that had happened. I thank her for rejecting me. Maybe because of that, I am able to learn and finally met my true love, which is my current girlfriend, Subasni. I like my first-love, and I do love to take care of her, and do not like to see someone actually hurt her. I want to protect her, but as a caring brother. I would love to see her finding her other half, and will have a happily ever after, just like what I had found, and what I am going through. I am lucky in the sense of getting reject, and then start everything all over again and all, to the getting a new girlfriend, and having a relationship all over again. It’s been a hell ride for me and my girlfriend, but that makes us stronger each day. I am glad she did what she did to me although it hurts so much that I can barely stand the pain, but to think of what I get in the end is actually far more happier and blessed in a way. I should really thank her. So I would like to thank her here (I know. She won’t able to see this, and that is why I am doing it here. Ha ha ha. xD).  Swart Ying. Thanks for everything. Everything. You did not gave up on me, and you still befriended with me after all this, and you never let any of those stop you from being a good sister. I’m so lucky that I met you. Thanks a lot. You will always be my good sister.

Signing off now. Gotta chat with my type writer girlfriend. xD Till next time. Astalavista~ =p