My Own WorLD~ Q(",Q)

Feelings are all mixed up right now. No particular reason. Just felt that I did so much of bad things these past few months (not proud of it at all) and so many shocking news.

First was a close friend to my girlfriend. She was unlucky to be a “victim” of a “rapist”. She was left alone by one useless-son-of-a-bitch-that-should-be-curse-to-death while she suffers for more than NINE months alone, feeling hopeless and helpless. But no matter how hard her life is after that, she stood up and did not give up hope, all by herself, and she actually gave birth to a pretty baby girl, Faith :) I am so proud of her, and if I can really help her out, I would really love to give her a helping hand. Gosh. She is so brave and strong! Only God knows how much suffer she been through. HUGS and best wishes to you and Faith! :) Next will be my colleague, suddenly popped up one topic today. She is all happy and all smiley face. She told me and a friend that she is GOING, well maybe I should say, PLANNING to get married. Talk’s been going on, and plans are on the way. Well, I don’t really know what to do, and what to say. It’s like so weird. A friend of yours, that you always ate with every single lunch-time, told you that she is going and planning to get married. SHOCKED! But of course I am happy for her. :)

These topics made me think of my own life story. I have a best girlfriend in the world (at least I think so). We are 6 years in relationship, less than 3 years of those are LDRs. We are still strong, yeah :), and will be always. But thinking of those times when she came back from Japan till today, I don’t really remember giving her a nice day (at least I think I did not) :( I’m being so hard on her, and I just give her all kinds of faces when I am just not in the mood. Families, friends, studies, work, normal day out etc. I think my temper is getting out of control, eh?

Well. What I can proudly say today is….I am happy being with her. And will be. :) Just need some place to pour and give out some steam. Working life is always bitch, with all kinds of weird people. What to do?! \ ~.~ /

Gotta really IMPROVE MYSELF for her sake, and my family’s sake. I do not want her to be like my mum. She deserves better. I have four years to do that :) YOSH YOSH! Hope to give her all the best thing in the world! :)

Well….kinda last right now. Gonna sign off and straight to bed. :) Will be missing my baby, 40 minutes away from me (so near yet so far) :S Goodnight and sleep tight. :)

By Jason